失眠的夜晚

(15 June 2011)

不晓得是受了刚才那杯Cappucino的影响，

夜都深了，依然还无法入眠，

脑袋依旧那么清醒...

好久也没失眠了，好像都是N年前的事了。

印象中每个夜里，都是呼呼大睡...

自从病愈之后，失眠的次数也慢慢减少了，

还记得那时的我，连睡眠都是个问题。

还真不喜欢那种感觉，

那种看着天花板到天亮的无奈...

深夜容易让人思绪漂浮，

思念可能像海水般,

一波一波地侵袭着你,

特别容易想起某些人某些事...

这时，不知怎么就喜欢开着音乐，

随着音符的起伏，那么纯粹地发呆着...

最近，老是做回以前的事情，

也不知那是凑巧还是什么那样，

你会发觉同样的地点，同样的动作，

却得不到相同的感觉...

有种“人事全非”的领悟，

不好的丢了也罢，

但是好的却又如何重来呢?

即使想念如何去发芽，

后来之间的变化，不想再多说话，

经过了相遇和挣扎，还是无法放下...

不管是哪个他，还是哪个她，

知道现在，自己需要的只是我...

"At night I pray

That soon your face

Will fade away...

And everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you haunting me

I guess I need you baby..."

--Everytime, Britney Spears

Kampung Kia is revive!

I dunno whether it's correct or not....

but i know i have some breakthrough....

Everything is ready, the problem is relate with the mindset

and how i look upon everything...

Even though i know i need to change,

but one week in home, i did nothing...

I know it's wrong but i became more lazy to move...

Thanks to my best frienz to chat in the lately nitz...

It's the 3rd round already, both of us seemed like tired,

but she scold me for more than one hour...

I felt my head is heavy and the wires was seemed like traffic jam,

but i got the feeling of that seemed like i find out the answer.

The answer was in front of me, it was over there, i cannot figure it out...

It's took time to digest well..

Thanks God, i understand most of that at the end...

I couldn't sleep well at the night.

I know the problem and solution,

but nothing was change...

These because of mindset...

I know that CHANGES is coming in front of me,

If I couldn't grab it well,

the only one result is Everything'll gone!

"Let the kampung kia back!"

It's the time to do so.

That's only one sound deep inside my heart...